januraru third

the holidays have been especially rough in terms of homesickness. I spent my home countrys new years alone and slept through my current countrys new year. christmas was okay but man it has just not been easy to be honest. on the brighter side i have a trip to orlando all planned which i am excited for.
to be honest i came here to just write what was on my mind. people keep saying, no one thinks about you as much as you think about yourself, you overthink, noone watches you as closely as you think. i wonder if people realize how closely i observe them sometimes. or maybe everyone does it sometimes. i find myself keeping track of what some of my friends are up to; wondering what theyre doing; who they're spending time with. is that strange?